And the world wants to know ...... WHY???

-Many a time have I heard  "Girl !!you mean a lot" from the people speaking their heart out , from the ones I could have trusted upon ..but to my experience ... Very few of them actually meant  !!
And the world wants to know why do I have trust issues ???

- I came across thousands of beggars in their shaggy look ,  ..... But to the knowledge of  my heartless brain.. I noticed how only few of them actually needed to beg  !!
And the world wants to know why don't I  always help the needy ?

- yes , i'm aware of Indian penal code .. and how the laws work..and have a brief sufficient knowledge of legal systems for which I should have felt safe and secured.. but to my boiling nerves .. I have seen very few wrongdoers actually getting punished !! 
And the world wants to know .. why don't I have faith ?

- My soul is still attached to promises  once done to me .. by the people who meant ..but to be accurate, very few of the promises were kept !!
And the world wants to know why do i keep very less people close ??

- Those weeping eyes I ever saw.. squashed me  to several folds ... for I empathized with them every time ..but with elevating age I got to know ...  very few of them actually cried !!
And the world wants to know why I don't believe in tears ??

- Those couples celebrating their relationship anniversaries seemed perfect to me ... Until I got to know that out of thousands of love stories .. very few actually contained LOVE  !!
And the world wants to know.. why don't I praise relationships !!

-I was so mesmerized by the perfect creation of morphological features of some people ..  that makes them pretty as hell with their  nose , lips ,eyes and cheek bone orderly placed !!But  As my matured eyes saw deep down their soul  .. I found  how very few of them were actually beautiful !!
And the world wants to know why  don't I admire Looks !!

- I always loved to see old people .. adding years to their life ..how they complete their part of struggle and happily see their successive generation doing the same !! But As I gave a close look.. I saw that out of all the wrinkled faces I have ever come across .. very few actually experienced LIFE !!
And the world wants to know why I never miss a chance to live the life to its fullest !!

- My biology book said .. " all human beings belong to the same species, i.e , Homo sapiens ...And we have  inadvertently created a turning point in the history of life on Earth.... !! "
But there exists some Homo sapiens I cannot relate myself  to at all !! I can't digest being categorized in the same species as theirs .. !!

I wish I could make the world EVOLVE all over again ...  And the world wants to know ...

                           Why?

Just A Sentence Away !!

Date 29/09/2017

Time - 2:47AM

Dear jenny ...

Sitting at a distance of  50cm   ...  I could receive the strongest  vibes coming from him which worked as a  diclofenac gel to my wounds... which ached since years !! Yes, it was me & him  sitting together in a  park near my hostel !!  For few minutes,  He looked past my nervousness and   stared  at a tree  .... but then, someone had to break the silence ...so i asked  ... "How are you ?? "
He didn't reply.. But gave an incomplete smile  !! What did that mean ??? Ughhhh.. most of the times he's  beyond my level of understanding !! Over messages too.. Never have he ever given a direct answer to any of my  queries !! Jenny , had he not been my love .. I would have punched him hard for not being direct in anything he wants to convey !!
Suddenly , I heard  him saying ..." Don't you miss me ?"
That brought a full stop to my heart beats for few seconds ... My reply was tucked inside me.. But I had no perfect choice of words to answer him !! Never can a language  describe what I had to say ... But my eyes definitely answered ... !!
Yeah , tears rolled down ...!! I took out a  handkerchief  (which I hardly carry )  from the brown leather side-bag.. and wiped away those useless liquid denser  than water from my eyes  !!
"No.. I'm too busy to miss you "....finally I opened my mouth!!   I wanted him to believe what I had just said !! He smiled again ... !! Poor me !! I can't even lie properly in front of him !!  
" I miss you too " A voice was heard ..  !!
Jenny ... No exaggeration , but yes , I did feel as if .. he said something that meant the world to me !! It soothed my soul
"I always knew that he cares ... He was worth the wait " my heart giggled and the above mentioned  distance of 50 cm   was reduced to 1/4th !!

"Why on earth  would a guy miss a girl  to this extent  that he himself visited to see her !! Isn't it love ?? " I thought to myself with utmost gratitude to almighty  !!
Jenny , that moment ...so Vulnerable and  perfect ... felt as one of those feelings which people describe in novels so prevailingly... that you stop reading, lower the book and live the word for a moment !!
Finally I could confess how deeply I love him .. And for the first time .. He was ready to listen not  only  to my words but to my heart too!! I could sense the affection coming out from him..when he held my hand ...  !! I could feel how buried were his emotions ..!!
It is truly said .. "boys hide it well.. When it comes to emotions  " !!  
Jenny , the boy who had  refused to let my love enter his life 2 years back .... Was sitting just beside me .. With his  eyes ready to say something ..!!
How come people don't believe in fairy tales.. ?? I had my tale ready  to be told .... A perfect tale.. Just a sentence away !!
"Please say it or else my heart will need  another pacemaker soon "  .... I pleaded in silence !!
And finally  , he spoke ....   But before I could listen what I have ever craved for .. My friend woke me up for the morning  8:15  lecture   !!